I got some bad news at work today. My only contract customer is not renewing their contract at the end of the term. I run a very small computer repair business, and I want to build my commercial business, and this news really bummed me out. I didn't even work today, I just sat at home and moped around. I ate some extra peanuts and pretzels this afternoon, but nothing too drastic. I just don't know what to do. I'm behind on one bill (a big advertising bill).
I'm in a slump at work. I just don't have any confidence in myself. It seems every time I pitch something to a business, they say it's too expensive, yet my prices are lower than everyone else. To be honest, I just want to sit down and cry, but fortunately I haven't done that yet.
Ironically, I lost my contract customer because they want to spend a lot of money on a system. But, they want to spend it on a voip phone system that integrates with their email, and they also want blackberries with a blackberry server. I don't do phones but I do blackberries. Of course, the new person they found to do the phones says that he prefers to manage the entire network and phone system, which makes sense.
I researched the phone system that they are implementing and it's actually very easy to setup and install. So, I might start trying to sell it. But, like I said earlier, every time I pitch something over $1000, the business balks at the price. I guess I should start targeting customers that want this stuff, but my confidence is so low because others say no to what I've pitched.
My business goal this year is just to break even. I really don't want to go into bankruptcy.
I will not be renewing my phone book advertising.
Sorry my thoughts are all over the place, but I am really depressed right now. I feel like I don't know what I'm supposed to do.
I'm going to sell my camera gear and studio lighting. I can probably get $2500 for that. I'm thinking about selling my drums because they have been sitting in the corner collecting dust for years. I do want to set them up to play, but I must set my priorities.
I was just thinking that my spending is like how I used to eat. I buy anything I want on credit card like I used to eat anything I wanted. I AM on a spending diet right now, but it may be too late.
I hope you had a better day than I did.
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2 scrambled eggs
1 pumpernickel toast with cheese
sandwich: 2 pump, 1 turkey, cream cheese
cinnamon apple sauce
1.5 chicken breast baked
broccoli with salad dressing
pork and beans